MANUELLA

When God said let there be light, I believe that He also had me in mind at the sound of such a magnificent declaration. At age 25 I believed that I’d seen and experienced all that I needed to and actually all that I could endure. Once again I happened to be on the floor of my hallway, defeated. Abused by those in positions of authority and tormented by those who are seen and unseen I was a walking talking bundle of trauma.

decades old, I could not perceive the point of life, the point of continuing nor   the   point   of 

Beyond depressed, disappointed with  mankind, and disillusioned  with  God, I could  not  quite  focus  on the point because I could not  find  it.  Two  and  a  half

Beyond depressed, disappointed with mankind, and disillusioned with God, I could not quite focus on the point because I could not find it..

me. That was a dark evening. This reality however wasn’t isolated as this was a state which was now too familiar.

Once again I had had enough, but this time was slightly different. This time would be the last time that I would make an agreement with death, smile with the end in sight and rubber stamp my will to die. Eyes wide open, tear ducts full, increased pulse, gut wrenching nausea, I found myself enclosed in a tunnel. The tunnel was dark for a long moment, but then….

Some light broke through. This light became my hope and my hope revealed Himself as Jesus Christ.

Athletically,   academically   and   socially   confident,   no    one would   have   guessed    that    this    qualified     lawyer    was  a  walking    vault    of   damning   secrets.

Silenced by “the blind spots”, false guilt, false responsibility and (miss placed) loyalty, a God given

I now know the truth because I have received the truth but the truth is not all that I have received.

passion for truth and justice was yet to be released. The mute is no longer,

the silence is over, to Christ I surrender –  Amen.

I now know the truth because I have received  the truth but the truth is not all that I have received. I have also received a mandate to share, to speak out and to declare the Christ I believe. This is what I do. I’m not about the career and I’m out of the rat race, for money is not my motivation. I’ll still make it and spend it so let’s not get it twisted but I’m fuelled by His will and sheer determination.

I have an appreciation of the price that was paid for me so I have agreed to give my life to the one who gave His life for me. Without Him I am nothing and with Him I am everything as it is through Him that I’m finally complete. My heart now beats with His love and His passion and the smile that you now see is real deep.

I thank God for waking me up and for declaring that there will be light. I thank God for my redemption, my rebirth, my adoption and I thank Him for the love, faith and boldness injection. Each day I see His glory, He is the hope within my story, because He first choose me, He is my choice. Indeed, He is the power, my substance and my volume just listen …. as He has released my voice.

Now. Let’s Talk, Raw Talk…..

MANUELLA

When God said let there be light, I believe that He also had me in mind at the sound of such a magnificent declaration. At age 25 I believed that I’d seen and experienced all that I needed to and actually all that I could endure. Once again I happened to be on the floor of my hallway, defeated. Abused by those in positions of authority and tormented by those who are seen and unseen I was a walking talking bundle of trauma.

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Beyond depressed, disappointed

with mankind, and disillusioned with God, I could not quite focus on the point

Beyond depressed, disappointed with mankind, and disillusioned with God, I could not quite focus on the point because I could not find it…

because I could not  find  it. Two  and  a  half decades old, I could not perceive the  point of  life, the point  of  continuing nor  the point of me. That was a dark evening. This reality however wasn’t isolated as this was a state which was now too familiar.

Once again I had had enough, but this time was slightly different. This time would be the last time that I would make an agreement with death, smile with the end in sight and rubber stamp my will to die. Eyes wide open, tear ducts full, increased pulse, gut wrenching nausea, I found myself enclosed in a tunnel. The tunnel was dark for a long moment, but then….

Some light broke through. This light became my hope and my hope revealed Himself as Jesus Christ.

Athletically,   academically   and   socially   confident,   no    one would   have   guessed    that    this    qualified     lawyer    was  a  walking    vault    of   damning   secrets.

The silence is over, to Christ I surrender –  Amen.

 

I now know the truth because I have received the truth but the truth is not all that I have received.

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I now know the truth because I have received  the truth but the truth  is not all that  I have

received. I have also received a mandate to share, to speak out and to declare the Christ I believe. This is what I do. I’m not about the career and I’m out of the rat race, for money is not my motivation. I’ll still make it and spend it so let’s not get it twisted but I’m fuelled by His will and sheer determination.

I have an appreciation of the price that was paid for me so I have agreed to give my life to the one who gave His life for me. Without Him I am nothing and with Him I am everything as it is through Him that I’m finally complete. My heart now beats with His love and His passion and the smile that you now see is real deep.

I thank God for waking me up and for declaring that there will be light. I thank God for my redemption, my rebirth, my adoption and I thank Him for the love, faith and boldness injection. Each day I see His glory, He is the hope within my story, because He first choose me, He is my choice. Indeed, He is the power, my substance and my volume just listen …. as He has released my voice.

Now. Let’s Talk, Raw Talk…..